Saying Goodbye this Christmas

I'm thankful to God.

I wanted to hold her much longer, but it wasn't my duty to do that.

God was holding her.

He is Still holding her.

I was selfish. We got to know each other very quickly, as we had similar interests.

I wanted to have more time with her, and I just got to know her. Logically thinking, I knew other people wanted to see her one last time, and she had things to do before she left.

I wanted to say so much more, but I wasn't brave enough to speak any words of significance. My thoughts failed me. I didn't want her to go.

But, God wanted her to move.

I stared at her as it may be the last time I see her. As I realize our time was almost up, she stays to watch me drive away for the last time.

Even though we will keep up by e-mail and a few phone calls, it won't be the same. Then I have a sudden thought. I get an opportunity to value the shared times and experiences.

That sudden thought fails me.

I feel alone. It will eventually go away. At this moment, I want to feel wrapped in that loneliness, like a comforting jacket. Yes, I do believe that God will comfort me, and He will comfort her.

Yeah, I'll miss her. For some reason, I know that we'll meet up again.